Tripping under the pouring RAIN!

Yesterday I me and my childhood friend Bilog went shopping in SM. It was rainig so hard but it was a lot of fun.

--Friday, yesterday my Dongsaeng came back from NY and I was so pissed because I was not able to meet her.DANG! I was at my work, well, not in the envelopes but in the computer shop. I was there in the shop when my little brother came and told me that Jet2x wanted to see me. I was like- omg, no I can't. I can't live work at the shop but I could for a little of time if I were in my other work. WAa........sorry Jet!!!

I was so sad but I keep myself up and told myself. We will see each other again! DUH!
Then...about 4:30 pm ate marianne came and it was now here turn/shift. I was so happy. But then, when I was out of the sight of computers,boink, cleaning TIME! We were to clean our place. It was so fun and a little bit tiring, but all in all it was so HAPPY!

Bilog and I agreed that she would go to my house if are about to go to SM. It was already raining then, but still they say, the show must go on. I wear something made of silk and black pants, I knew wearing something black for mny lower body would be very comfortable with this kind of weather. I wore a jacket, my pink jacket that I haven't worn for a long long time. Then Bilog came and whoosh, we went to SM. I brought my umbrella, the new umbrella that costs 200 pesos that mother bought for me, and I, unwillingly accepted because I was to pay for it.

When were on our way, I thought to myself, DAng it has been years since I have bonded with bilog. YOu know, althought Bilog is my childhood friend, we are never close to each other. So, I was kinda gald because somehow I see this as an experience to strengthen our bond, somehow. I felt like she was a different person.

We first went to the PIN maker, where I had my TVXQ pin made. This time, I had a chain made an accesory for my cellphone.
I had this design==

The chain would took a long time to be made so, we went to see some silver rings for Bilog and her lesbian lover Osang. I wanted to but some silver cross earrings too but I changed my mind because I didn't have any budget YET!
She bought a pair of crown rings for 300 pesos. Then we went back to see if the chain was made and FINALYY it was. I was so happy to obtain another TVXQ collectible!YEPEE!!!!=)

Then we decided to eat something, we went to KFC. I ordered, Pasta bowl the one Nica and I ate, I ordered two one for me to dine in and one for my family. Bilog ordered Wow Steak, she said she wanted to eat some rice. ==BILOG AND I==

Then we went shopping around for school things in National Bookstore. I also bought a bracelet for Jet2x. I found the quotes that came with the bracelet so fitting for us. Bilog bought also a LOVE card for osang.

After receiving text from Ate Jean, requesting me to buy her a memory card If I have some spare money, we went to CD-R king. But, unfortunately we haven't bought any because the price was kinda high.(SORRY ATE JEAN!) Next, we went to the Drugstore but I wasn't able to but Vitamins because they lack stock of it. Then, we went to but some pizza for Bilog to take home. After that I bought 2 ice creams for us (my treat) to eat. Ah....I miss the old days where Nica and I use to buy Ice cream too....

While were on our way back home, I happen to remember that mother told me to bet her lotto, lucky for us under the puor of heavey rain we happen to stumble upon a lotto outlet. THANKS!

When we reach the terminal of jeepneys, DANG! the line was so long. BUt, we didn't wait long aheheh...we sure are lucky.
When we reach my house we bid farewell to each other. I took my jacket off and went inside and thought to myself... pheww....what an experience!

Clumsy me...=)

Okay, while I'm typing this my knee is hurting. DANG! because of my clumsiness I got my knees injured. DUh!

Yesterday, Margaret and I went outside to buy some chocolate cup cake. While we were on our way back, I carried her. I wasn't paying attention to where I would step so, I slipped on the canal and BOINK! I got my knees hurt and my shorts so damn dirty! Luckily, Meg did not get hurt.=)DUH!

Ahehehe....but I'm happy because I finally have a copy of TVXQ third bigeast fan meeting. KUDOS TO DBSKNIGHTS!!!


OMO!!! YUNJAE!!!!!

They are totally my favorite couple in the group!=)
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EASY WAYS ARE NOT "EASY"- Trust is my weakness.

Well, one thing is for sure not all easy ways are "EASY". Because of my continuous hunger for TVXQ collectibles, I have experienced a terrible misfortune. They say, internet is the easiest way to connect. I've always believed this, but DANG! Ordering things in the internet is way too dangerous.

I was browsing for TVXQ collectibles in the internet to buy and I happen to stumble upon a collectible which I really liked. The price was cheap and the way to have it is easy- meet ups. I contacted the seller and she replied. I ordered a total of three collectibles, all personalized. We agreed to meet at the date of May 16. I was really eager to have the collectibles and I even saved money for it. I told her to text me if she will be able to make it since it'll be a waste of time for me if she's will not be there. First of all, I have work and the meeting place is kinda far. I easily trusted her because she was always online and we we're able to talk frequently and I think she was okay. Two days before the meet up, we chatted online and she told me that they were going at a concert of an artist. Later on, I realized that the date of the concert was May 16, the same day of our meet up. Then I feel a little nervous that she might not be able to make it, so I told myself to wait for her text if she will make it or not- unfortunately she didn't.

The next day, I checked my e-mail and as expected she did leave a message that she might not be able to make it. Then, i thought, if she was true then she should have texted me instead because, I clearly told her that I will not be online always so texting would be the easiest way to contact me. She should have done that! But then, I thought maybe she lost my number so I decided to give her another chance.

The next day we chatted again, she said sorry for not making it. I asked her if she had my number, she said she lost her sim card and was not able to text me, BUT, she said she had my number. WTF! If she had my number then she should have borrowed another cellphone! DUH! Then she said we should meet again friday that week and it was for sure. I agreed. Friday, I absent from my work to come and meet her. I was super excited as in EXCITED! I even wore red to make sure she would easily recognize me a CASSIE. I reached the meet up place approximately 11:15, fifteen minutes before our meet up time. The sun was so high and it was super duper HOT! I was sweating hard and my head was about to explode because of the heat.

While waiting for her I bought two books from a book slae stand, Dustland and How to be a good horror story writer for only one hundred.

WTF!!!! It was already 15 minutes pass 11:30 and patience was getting short. Then, I told myself, maybe she was just late so, to calm myself I ate noodles with siomai on top, hmmm.......MASHTA!

After eating I went inside the mall and went window shopping. I was constantly checking my cellphone for her text. I got tired from WS so I went back. It was already 12:15 and I felt like the whole world laughing at me for waiting for NOTHING!!! and for WASTING MONEY! I'm not the type of person who easily gets angry at anyone, the feeling I had that time was being angry with MYSELF- for easily engaging myself in that kind of scenario. I was not thinking!

I was so DAMN sad and ANGRY with myself, my head was floating! Then, I thought of going to SM Valenzeula to refreshen myself. Then, TING! An idea have popped out of my head. I remembered that there was stall there that makes personalised pins. I rushed on the stall, and my heart pounded from happiness upon seeing it. Luckily, I had TVXQ pictures on my cellphone. Whoot!.....for about 15 minutes I now have a TVXQ collectible item on my hand. Not wasting effort of commuting and not suffering from the heat of the sun!!!!!!!!298492837412321#@%@@&@(@(@^ PHEW!!


I went to KFC and bought "pasalubong" for my mother. She always wanted to taste the PASTA BOWL Nica and I ate the last time. Then I went home....

Hahah....sorry for being short. I just don't want to elaborate the other things that happened. I might explode.

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Third update on my TOP TEN SONGS OF THE WEEK

1. 9095 by TVXQ from their album Secret Code.
This song is really mysterious. OMO, this is written by my Jaejoongie! It's so amazing the LYRICS and SUPERB and it fits the word ENIGMA. It's so addicting.



2. Thanks to- DBSK
3. Kiss the baby sky-DBSK
4. Jai Ho- Pussy Cat Dolls
5. Fire- 2ne1
6. Insomnia- Wheesung
7. Fight the bad feeling- T-max
8. Forgotten season- Jaejoong
This song is so sad. Jaejoong's voice is so amazing. This song is a revival and is included in their Mirotic album.

9. Darkness Eyes- DBSK
10. Reset- Super Junior

Confessions of a Cassiopeia

After reading post of other member of cassph on the internet about how DBSK have brought changes in their life- I decided I should "confess" too.

I know I have been very open about how I super love these guys, now let's make it a little bit more deep.

Before I was a very jolly girl, easy going, not caring about other people's feelings, VERY VAIN and SUCH A BIATCH! I'am definitely a LIAR.Why? Because I'm afraid of what other people might say about me. I'm afraid of all the negative things about me being noticed. That's why, many people are mad at me. My friends are not really "MY FRIENDS". Let say we can call my relationship with others as "PLASTIC". I always wanted to be on the spotlight, I don't want to be left behind that's why I would make other people suffer my mistakes(see, I'm such a BIATCH!). You can also say that I'm close to being a "GOLD DIGGER", very boastful and a story maker. That's why I am not able to enjoy my HIGH SCHOOL LIFE and I have only established one strong relationship of friend(up until now we are friends.)

I've always been a HOMEBODY. Rarely go outside and make "GALA".

The only escape I could go to is the INTERNET. That's the only place I can express my true self, HERE. Before there is always anime, then J drama then K drama.
After watching the movie "A millionaire's first love" I met them, TVXQ. The OST of that movie was sung by my LOVE, Jaejoongie. Then later on I discovered he was a member of TVXQ. Then I did thourough research about them, second music I heard from them was BALLOONS. I found it dorky and very funny so I decided to have a copy of it's MV in my usb. Later on, I shared it with my brother who doesn't even know a single thing about KPOP. The good thing was, he liked it. Then they also became fond of TVXQ. We watch their videos together and sing their songs TOGETHER.

The first thing that made me a fan of them is their TALENT. Their voices that intoxicates even the littlest part of me. Their voices that reached my lonely soul. Their voices that brought colors to my darkened world. Their voices that serves a signal for me that LIFE should be enjoyed. Their voices that became my escape in sadness.
Upon knowing them further, I began to discover that something have changed in me. I became confident and developed a positive thought. All things that I have been before was changed. I have acquired many friends that I can call now as " TRUE FRIENDS". But, one thins haven't changed, me being a HOME BODY.=)

It's not just their voice, but their faces and dancing skills that gives shivers to my spine whenever I see them. The only thing that I'm sad of is the fact that I don't have any single, albums or poster of them. =( But, I still support them in my own way, by PRAYERS and LOVE.

FOREVER TVXQ will remain in my heart..........=)

LET'S GET IT ON!!

DANG! Time flies by so fast! 2 more weeks and I'm going to be in school again! But unlike any other who hates being in school again-I'd super LOVE to be there again!(duh!)=)

These past few days I feel like I'm in paradise(so much like a song phrase=) ) why? simple, because I'm going to study again.=) harharhar!!!! Not just me, but all of my little brothers also.Yup! including my little brother REGGIE (cute picture)



I'm really happy for him because he could meet new friends and he could be able to act as a normal child!BANSAI!!!*raises hands up*



Also, these past few days I have been experiencing so many wonderful things. I have made great progress regarding my social life(since "that" incident with my family) this includes having to meet new friends and able to discover your true self. I'm really grateful to GOD that he guided us through all that hardships we had. I have made new discoveries that I might never had discovered before in my past lifestyle. The greatest things that I happend to stambled upon to and achieved is TVXQ and my family being "ONE".

TVXQ is a korean boy band (I have been spazzing about this for a long time here!=)) that I have discovered when I was watching " A millionaire's first love". I fell in love with it's OST and later found out that It was sung by TVXQ specifically by my LOVE Jaejoongie oppa! Eversince then, I have been their fan at heart, mind and soul(isn't this one of their song?=)) They have been my inspiration and strength, in time of darkness they have been my light and, in times of problems chasing me they have been my escape. No one could ever understand my feeling (of course if they are like me, a fellow cassiopeia, then they could.=)). Eventhough other people treat me like a weirdo for singing their song which they couldn't even understand, I'm still IN LOVE with them. Unlike other people who base their status as being a fan by the looks,well, differentiate me, I became their fan because they are GREAT ARTISTS! They have talents. They are not like others who just makes fun of themselves-who are not worthy of being IDOLIZED as artists. Although I don't have one single album of them, still I support them morally. I pray for them. Eventhough they are far from my reach and meeting them is next to impossible, my love for them will never perish. They have made a scar ( I'm happy to have their scar )on my life and forever it will never be erased. This is the first time I have been deeply affected by other people (well except from my family.) Their songs have been my healing potion, it washes away my bad feelings. My dream is to be in their concert and support them. That is the only thing that I wish I could do for them. SUPPORT.

FAMILY, my family have been reunited as "ONE". Unlike before, my family is now closer to each other. No work to hinder and no problems to wall against us. I'm so proud of my family. Though we have faced a tremendous path, out faith were not shattered and instead it became stronger. Sometimes, I even ask myself " How the heck did I manage to do that?. If I were another person I might have been as well commited suicide.How?" GOD, thank you. Thank you for supporting and guiding my family. Although we lack financially, we are full of LOVE, then it's enough.

I have met great friends and discovered that real friends are just right beside you(literally). JET2x is our landlady's granddaughter who lives just right beside our house(apartment.) She's younger than me, my dongsaeng. She's an only child and I think that makes her a little bit lonely.
Before, I feel a little bit shy being close to her because she lives a different lifestyle from me and the fact that she is the granddaughter of our landlady. But as time flies by, I gradually discovered that she is yearning for a person that could actually understand her and be close to her, like a big sister. I think she actually treats me as her UNNIE and that makes me comfortable with her because, I too, yearns for a younger sister.=) She's really childlike altough she had reach the level of being an adolescent. I really hope our relationship will always still be the same though she will be far away from me.

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Third Update about my "TOP TEN SONGS OF THE WEEK"

1. Thanks to by DBSK- Everytime I hear this song It gives me shivers. I feel like angels are floating around me. Their vocals are really AMAZING!


2. Fire by 2ne1- Okay now, these girls are really ROCKIN' MY WORLD! DANG! This is actually the first time that I got to be a fan of a GIRL BAND! DANG!


3. Kiss the Baby Sky- DBSK
4. Darkness in my eyes- DBSK - This song is very EMO. Very amazing I feel like I'm in a different world.
5. Again and Again by 2pm
6. Love in the Ice- DBSK
7. Fight the bad feeling by T max- One of BOF's Soundtracks JUNDI Hwaiting!
8. Haru haru by BIG BANG- Okay now..... I happen to LIKE LISTENING to this again.
9. RESET by Super Junior
10. Jai Ho by PUSSY CAT DOLLS- DANG! first time hearing this and I got caught instantly.I really want to watch the movie of this.

MOODY ME....=( PROBLEMATIC SOUL......who needs help.

I can't help but pity myself for what is happening to me these past few days. My mind have been traveling in thin air and I often make mistakes.

Doubt,anger,anxiety,excitement and sometimes LONELINESS. Why did I typed the word "LONELINESS" in caps? Because this is the most dominat feeling, the feeling that I often feel these past few days. Why? I don't know the answer either but, I know that is what you call that feeling. The feeling that no one is beside you when you are down, when you are in pain, no one to share you're feelings to, no shoulder to cry on.

People often, mistakes me as an innocent person, diligent, creative, refined, the type who follows the rules(0bedient). But, is that who really I am. Is that how judgemental people nowadays are? I think I'm beginning to understand(the deeper meaning from what I thought it was) what the idiom "Don't judge a book by it's cover" meant.

I have discovered 3 kinds of people. One is the person who easily judges a person by her/his outer shell e.g the way he/she dresses, speak and walk. The second one is the person who judges by your mistakes. They depend their judgement by your mistakes. One mistake and their impression of you will change and the WALL OF TRUST shall have its crack and the word "second chance" are not in their vocabulary. The third one is.... BOTH.

I have been trying hard not to have grudges with these kind of people. Surely, I will just waste my time with them.