Yearning

Can you hear me?
I am crying, here in my room,
Thinking about all the problems that I have,
I can no longer feel the wind,
I can no longer face the sun;

Can you hear me?
My soul is screaming inside my body,
I can no longer stand still,
I am facing you with bended knees;

Can you hear me?
Do you hear my prayer?
Can you see me?
What can you see?
Why are you letting this happen to me?
Am I evil?
Maybe, you are trying to test me,
To know my strength and ability,
Are all these just a test?
Or am I such a pest?

HELP me! Oh Lord! get me out of this misery!