MOODY ME....=( PROBLEMATIC SOUL......who needs help.

I can't help but pity myself for what is happening to me these past few days. My mind have been traveling in thin air and I often make mistakes.

Doubt,anger,anxiety,excitement and sometimes LONELINESS. Why did I typed the word "LONELINESS" in caps? Because this is the most dominat feeling, the feeling that I often feel these past few days. Why? I don't know the answer either but, I know that is what you call that feeling. The feeling that no one is beside you when you are down, when you are in pain, no one to share you're feelings to, no shoulder to cry on.

People often, mistakes me as an innocent person, diligent, creative, refined, the type who follows the rules(0bedient). But, is that who really I am. Is that how judgemental people nowadays are? I think I'm beginning to understand(the deeper meaning from what I thought it was) what the idiom "Don't judge a book by it's cover" meant.

I have discovered 3 kinds of people. One is the person who easily judges a person by her/his outer shell e.g the way he/she dresses, speak and walk. The second one is the person who judges by your mistakes. They depend their judgement by your mistakes. One mistake and their impression of you will change and the WALL OF TRUST shall have its crack and the word "second chance" are not in their vocabulary. The third one is.... BOTH.

I have been trying hard not to have grudges with these kind of people. Surely, I will just waste my time with them.